The rest of last week was good. I start from the top, life is good to me.

Work was ok and I got my hair re-done on Wednesday.

School all day Thursday. It was kinda shitty. My whole education class found out that we are failing. I got a parking ticket. I passed my Music midterm but failed my 7 Ideas midterm. I had so much space and I sat around and did nothing. By the end of the day I was so pumped for burgers so I ran out of math only to realize I locked my keys in my car and didn't have my spares. Dad brought them to me and I was on my way.

Burgers were great. Mikey and I clicked so amazingly. We decided to go to Ryans and get drunk. I got drunk. Then i went home.

Friday was good. I hung out with Amanda all day. We dined and ditched a Swensons cause they wouldn't take my money. I hung with Mag for a bit. I got ditched by Gina and Curtis. I went to see the guys at the shop. No one was there but Mike so we got high and talked.

Saturday was fun. Busy busy all day. I went vintage shopping with Jason in Cleveland and got a ring and a bracelet and a scarf and a hat. As soon as I got home I had to go to Kent to see Maxs band play. It was great. The show was huge. Bands from 4pm until 1am. After My Mouth Is The Speaker played I went to the grocery store to get food for me this week while I am on spring break, ahh spring break, it feels so good. I made pizza with Maggie and then we went back to Kent. This band called Sea Skulls played and there were plastic balls from a ball pit all over the place. Hockey Fight played. The Kids United played. So GOOD! American Warewolves played. They were sort of like if you took how Rancid looks and mashed it together with the way the Misfits sound. It was kind of scary.

We waited to see Wreak Havoc because it was the previous lead singer from NSDWHOA! whom Maggie and I love. All he ever did before was fuck everything up. I was a bit worried because we were in a church and I didn't know, if the band was going to respect the space regardless of personal beliefs or, how the owners were going to react to something like that. Turns out they don't care what you do. One word, epic. Real, heavy, filthy punk rock. It's so nice to know that still exists. I also ended up with a wicked head injury, that I just noticed today.

When they were finished it had been a long enough day and I needed to go home. Max ended up following. We have a great friendship. I tell him all the time that I always wanted to be as close as we are now. i'm pretty happy it turned out like this. Mike stalked from up the road. Mike and Andy living that close is going to get me in some truoble this summer and I can't wait. Anyway, we wandered up to partake in some Mario-Kart. That didn't end up happeningm what did was major drunk-ness. I walked into a living room to meet Jimmy and almost trip over 20 or so empty beer bottles. We watched Family Matters and the sex tape of Meg White's that some how ended up on the internet. Mike is so critical. Hanging out with 3 guys, it's only obvious they would all need a cigarette after that one. Max and I called it a night. I needed sleep and he had church in the morning.

Sunday, I woke up very, very late. Now, I know it is from the headache. I ran, because I was really angry when I got out of bed. I don't really know what I did all day. I know I saw Nate and Greg at some point. (Nate just walked in and helped me remember) Nate and I did the dishes and tried to set up and tent in his living room. We played Monopoly and he beat my ass horribly. We went on a lot of walks and shared some MetroBurger as well. Jim came home and told us about his trip to California. Greg brought us a present from work. I went home because my head was exploding.

The longest day so far was Monday. I took Maggie to school and Drew to work. I picked Amanda up and brought her over to do laundry. We made fish sandwiches and then we got ice cream. Stopped in the shop to see Al and he was all awkward. I'm officially looking for someone new to get tattooed by. Then I went to hang out with Gina and Nate. It was a good rest of the day. After Gina left Nate and I went on a cruise to get some coffee. We didn't end up getting any cause there were 7 cops and the K9 unit. The night ended with Nating going to the bar to play music trivia and me going home to sleep.

Today went well. I'm too tired to write more and Nate just went to sleep so I am going to head there as well.

You promised you would ditch being a vegetarian with me this one day AND YOU DITCHED ME! You really fuckin ditched me for you boy friend and told me I wasn't allowed over. You ruined my day cause it was the only thing I was looking forward to. So fuck wanting to spend time with you when you probably would rather be spending time with him. Now I know why Amanda left. You guys are stupid.

WTF?! I don't know how to explain the guys I know. WE ARE FRIENDS!!!!

I am in love with one man with all of my whole entire being and it keeps me from any kind of boyfriend ever.

I don't know what to do/think anymore.

As happy as I am always, tonight I found infinite sadness. It's wanting something so much that I don't have.

I can't complain about today at all.

Last night I was bored after school so I baked some amazing cookies and decided I was going to take them to Al today. I want a new tattoo so bad I really can't take it anymore. I spent most of my night last night on the phone with Sammi and Danielle, I love both of them dearly. Max came over and we snuggled.

This morning I woke Maggie up and then went back to bed. Drew woke me up and I took him to work. I came home and took a great shower. I went and got coffee and had to pay for it, lame. John and I chatted for a while. Everyone I run into asks how my mom is. I went to see Al. I am so glad I did. He was so great and so happy to see me. I took cookies. Mike said hi and Joe said hi. Courtney was there which was funny. Then I went to work.

I hung out with Nate after work and cut his hair. He got a wicked nose bleed. It was so funny.

I'm cutting my hair more tomorrow. I hope I'm getting my nails filled too. School is gonna be great. I'm going to bed.

This month held a lot of great things for me. I wish they could be like this again though.


Wednesday was a great day. It started off with getting to work early. Aunt Jenni brought me cupcakes. I wish I would have taken a picture of them. They were seriously so good. I cut my hair off. I got to see half of a good band play. I hung out with some boys. The Max came over and we smoked a blunt and stayed up all night. School was good on Thursday. Delanies was great too. I hung out with Carter.

Wowwie! Sunday night I got the best surprise ever. MuscleMack$aMillion came and had a cuddle puddle. We watched Planet Earth and talked about Jamaica. It was great. We snuggled to Fresh Prince.

Monday was long. There was a sort of BSTABB reunion. I went to pick up Kenny and Max brought over the DVD of the December 2nd show. It was great. That show was so epic.

School was good today. Im gonna snuggle with my little Jose.

I miss Joey. Night.

I wanted to smoke a blunt and snuggle with a boy and instead my body decided I wanted to vomit. What a great night.

( This is how I spend my nights )Yesterday was busy busy busy. I took Drew to work and then came home and took a shower. I went over to Amanda's and we went and got salads at Rocknees. We went shopping and I spent 100 bucks on her. I love her so much. We went to Caribou and I saw Jason. After that Maggie, Mom and I went shopping haha. Maggie and I went and got FRUTISTAS! I am such a nerd I drug Mandi and Maggie to the Planetarium with me. It was so freaking awesome! We went to Jimmy Johns after and the drove to Canton to see Kenny cause his "wifey" broke up with him and he decided to remember me. We hung out for a long time and then we went home.

Today was ok. I woke up and went to get my nails done. They look so good. After that I went to Caribou and studied and Christopher showed up which was the only amazing part of today. I went home and had a bowl of cereal and then went to WE the art gallery and saw Jason for a bit and then came home.



Nate is pissed at me so this is what I looked like. And then my phone twinkled and I had a message on Twitter from Andy and then I looked like this!



also my nails look like this!



YAY! Goodnight!

School was good on tuesday, I didn't work on wednesday and school was good on thursday. I went to burgers and I went home and did school work. I am all caught up on my school work. Friday I went to lunch with mom and Amanda. I finished my chapters for human comm! I passed two math quizes and  finished both math assignments online! Then I went and hung out with Bill. Have I mentioned how great he is? Hes great! We hung out and snuggled a little.

Saturday was fun. It was my dads birthday. Nate and I hung out with Amanda and Ryan. I wrote some of my paper and I talked to Maxwell all night. Brandon and I smoked a blunt and watch Zack and Miri Make a Porno. It was so cute haha.

Today I got up at like 8 and zoomed to work. I was supposed to work 8 to noon but we worked 8 to 1 cause some people didn't show up for the floorset. I came home and showered and went to Caribou to see Blaze and write some more of my paper. I went out to dinner with Dad and then went to Mom's to work on my paper some more. I went to Nates to hang with Greg for awhile and Nate kicked us out so we went home.

I was getting ready for bed and noticed 150 was missing out of my room. I went to ask Maggie and I found out she was gone. I woke Dad up and spent about half an hour calling all of her friends to find her. I got a few answers. Dad called mom. No one knew where she was. I went to look for her. I finally found her after like 20 minutes. We drove and talked. There was a lot of crying. Shes dumb as hell but if you know me you know she means the world to me. I was so worried.

Its been crazy here...and I'm still out 150 bucks. Well, fuck.

Wow. I need a break for sure.

Saturday was great. I woke up and took Amanda to get her hair done and it turned out so well. She got her eye brows waxed and some high lights and Kate gave her some more layers. Shes beautiful and Ryan told her she looked cute too! ( Dad got me a new camera! )Dad, me, Amanda, Ryan and the baby went out to lunch. After that we went shopping and got outfits for the night. I hung out with Nate for a bit during the day and then me, Momma and Maggie went to dinner. MMMMMMM So good. I went home and snoozed for a bit and then Amanda, Ryan and I went to musica to see Baby Bear and Stiletto. We got wasted and it was awesome! I was so worried Amanda was gonna get in a fight. I met a nice boy! Lets just be friends. I saw a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while! While waiting for Chris and Ryan, Amanda and Amanda peed in the parking garage infront of some girls car. They dropped me off at home and I went to Nates were I got anihilated and passed out on the couch.

I woke up at 10 and went to snuggle with Greg and Nate. I had a headache all day. I did laundry and cleaned and then we went on a blunt cruise and passed out for 3 hours. I finished cleaning and went to sleep. It was a great way to end the weekend.

Today I sat at Caribou from 11:30 to 6:30. I worked so hard on school shit. I went to moms after and then I went to Bills! The best! We talked so much. Now I know why I love him haha. Cigs, laying down, water, growing up, houses, closets, cats, dumbass wannabe dads. Shit like that. Hes great!

This weekend was so great! Night bitches!

The majority of today was amazing! I woke up early and took a great shower. I kinda yelled at Drew cause I told him I wasn't blowing off my plans to take him to work. I mean, it's my birthday, right? Anyway, I went to the office to say hi and drop off my key to Christine. Annie said she would take me out to lunch for my birthday. She took me to Bravo and it wasn't bad. Not the best Italian food though. I gave Nate my left overs and Brandon and I smoked a blunt and went to see Coraline. It was wonderful but no little kid should see that movie.

I took a nap for a bit after that. Then I hurried and rushed to the Grog Shop to hang with Jessy and Jillian. Chrissy Sammi and Laura were there and we danced a lot. Then Chrissy Sammi Laura and I went to iHOP and it was great. We had an amazing time.



( ...and then... )

I don't feel any different. Tonight was epic. I had like 4 different groups of friends all together and it was beautiful. These people mean the world to me (in no specific order):

Billy
Steph
Curtis
Malhon
Ryan
Amanda
Jim
Nate
Greg
Jillian

It was have been a million times more epic if these people could have been there too (in no specific order):

Andy
Sheena
Ryan
Stephan
Dylan
Brandon
Bill
Yannon
Cory
Maggie
Mom
Chrissy
Sammi
Mandi
Angela
You Know Who

We all sat together and had burgers and beer. I couldn't have asked for anything better. Jillian bought my dinner. Ryan bought me a drink. Everyone sang to me. I wanted to cry.

Tomorrow:
Lunch with Annie at 12.
Movies with Brandon at 2:35
Weed run at some point.
Baking cookies.
Hang with Nate, Jim and Greg?
Grog Shop with Jessy?
Out with Jillian?
New Friends?
Nothing?

Saturday:
Hair appointment with Amanda.
Lunch with Dad and Amanda.
New camera.
New shoes?
Dinner with Mom.
Musica for Baby Bear and Stiletto with Amanda, Ryan and Maggie.

For my birthday I would like:
A nice little glass pipe.
A grinder.
A bag of nugget.
Digital Camera.
New shoes.
Money.
Books.
Magazines.
Sammi and Chrissy and Angela.
...and to tell him how it is...but him, as well...please...

...goodnight.

I'm sitting in my education class doing nothing. It's all common knowledge. You know, meet high standards, care about your students, get involved. I'm gonna kick ass at this. I am very much less stressed out. Today is gonna be so long because I am so excited to see all of my friends tonight. Birthday in about 12.5 hours!

I am getting really bad at this. I have been meaning to update for so long and I just can't get it down. Well, since the last time I updated these are the things that have occurred:

- Sangria night times 2 went well.
- We made brownies on day and had an epic adventure.
- I changed my major and started school.
- I spent a weekend with Trav and the boys and also saw Alan and Gina!
- I got my hair cut.
- I got my hair colored.
- I got my lip pierced.
- I paid my speeding ticket.

Its been pretty good. Nate and Greg and I smoke lots of weed which needs to slow down drastically.

Saturdays Amplexus show was great. Maggie and I got there a bit early because I was supposed to work merch. I drank on the band tab which was awesome but I was wasty. Charles showed up! So Cute! New friends were there. There were some good talks and I will admit I was a bitch at the beginning of the night. I am so glad that Joe and I are friends again.

Yesterday was such a horrible day. I woke up and got a punch in the face from school work. I am so behind. It's not funny at all. I cried all morning and decided to skip class to get caught up. I'm still working on it today. I went to my last two classes and then hung out with Nate and Greg. I heard to much. I'm so over sleeping in that bed. I locked my keys in my car and left without saying goodbye. Fuck.

Money/Sex over family. Talk shit. It's what both of you do. I'm over it.

Still no phone call. It will be my luck that his package gets lost. I'll see him soon I know it. I need to love him. That's why I am here.

So today I am at work all day long. I'm gonna write my paper and do some more human comm work. But I need to write this!

I, Cortney Elizabeth Dague, will turn 20 years of age on Friday, February 6th, 2009. For my own, and only my own benifit, starting on the date of February 9th, 2009 I will follow these simple rules to get my ass in gear.

1. I will run at least once a week.
2. I will not eat after 9 pm.
3. I will not smoke cigarettes.*
4. I will not tease boys.*
5. I will stop procrastinating!
6. I will fix my posture.
7. I will stop chewing my gum so obnoxiously!
8. I wil be ok with just being friends (for now).
9. I will stop projecting my hate for her (or anyone, for that matter) so violently.
10. I will be happier.
11. I will be more true to myself.
12. I will live like its the last day ever.
13. I wont neglect my friends anymore.
14. I will try to get better at keeping my life up to date in a journal.
15. I will follow the fuck out of these rules!

I'd like to thank Blaze for this idea! He is great.
Signed, Sincerely, Me. (someone needs to catch onto that)

* acceptable when drunk or after sex!

I want a new tattoo. I need to write this paper. BYE! =D

Nothing really that exciting at all this week. At least nothing I can remember. I hung out with Nate a lot. We have fun. I talked to my bay a lot too! I'm going to New York on the 16th. Here we go again. I worked at the salon all day Wednesday which was fun.

Yesterday I went out to lunch with momma. We talked a lot it was great! Then she took me shopping! So badass. I got new skinnies that are corduroy! And I got new tank tops cause Amanda stole all of mine. I got a new mustard bag and a new pair of awesome boots. I hung out with Al. He is so awesome. We are hanging out Monday and I'm making him fried chicken. Then I went and got coffee and went to Nates. We did the dishes and cleaned his room. Jim got laid and he came out and gave us high fives. I cut all of Nates hair off and the Greg came over. We hung out for like an hour and then Greg and I went home.

Last night I woke up at like 3 cause my stomach was pissed at me for something. I ran upstairs to the bathroom and fell over trying to sit down on the floor. I realized I had to pee so I got up and fell over again. Then I woke up and I was lying on the floor with no pants on like out the bathroom into the kitchen. Holy shit what is wrong with me. Then I threw up everything that was in my body including all vital organs. This morning I woke up with no shirt on. Wow.

Today Nate Greg and I are making Sangria and getting annihilated tonight and Greg and I are gonna do it in his car. Haha EPIC!

Plans were up in the air for about a week for yesterday. I got a text with a phone number and then a phone call and a text from that number. Sweet voicemail. I love them until the get deleted after a month. I hurried my ass up to get ready and was obviously hurrying too fast because I got a speeding ticket on the way to Cleveland! It's gonna be a big one too. I drove around the Q a few times and them got a call and picked up my bay!

So bummed out. Weird that we are both just recently out of pretty serious relationships. We talked a lot and it was so good to make him smile. He said the magnets that Angela and I gave him are on his refridegerator! I don't think he knows how much just thinking about seeing him makes me smile. We got lost in Cleveland and I called my dad and we made our way to Coventry to go shopping! Score for the comics at Big Fun and score for the Hunter S. Thompson posters at Record Revolution!

Nate came through and Travis rode up the ramp on his segway! Hes rolling on 24's hahaha with chrome bitches on his rims. I love kisses sooo much! We froze our asses off to get to the venue and made our way through the metal detectors and up the escliator and around the arena and sat down. So out of place.

GCH played so well even though the sound was fucked cause it echoed. Keisha Cole was great. I knew many more songs than I thought. T-Pain was amazing. He had a whole circus. Midgets and stlits and strippers. There was fire too hahaha. Oh Weezy F. Baby. My jaw dropped when I saw you in real life. Later I had to pick myself up off of the floor when his shirt came off. And when he played Lollipop I realized I can die happy. I could die happier if I would have to gotten to take advantage of him hahaha.

No hangs after cause Trav has to be important and DJ places that I am too little to get in. He knows we love him and appriciate everything he does for us. The whole day was amazing. Although it could have been ten million times more amazing. Those stories will come someday.

Today was good. I got up at a good time. I went to get a rug for the bathroom and put gas in my car. I hung out with Amanda and Ryan for a bit. Curtis met me at Boarders to talk and get coffee. I worked from 4-8. They asked me to stay after the holiday season is over. Nate and I got Jimmy Johns and went on a blunt cruise. Greg came over and we hung out and ate pizza. I shouldn't have eaten this many M&M's. Tomorrow I want a smoothie. I can't wait to see my baby boy!

Happy New Year, Aquarius!

What Drives You Crazy:

Routine. You want to do things when the spirit moves you, no matter what time it is. This relates to eating, exercising, even making love. You would never be able to live with any kind of schedule. You probably don't own a watch--nothing important starts without you! Keep things a varied--you'll soon lose interest with the "same old, same old"!

Also, I need these:


 

I really need to get better at this. I sort of wanted to say blog every day of 2009 but it wont happen. I just don't have the time, or that kind of excitement in my life. Reflection is always a strange thing for me. So much flows through my mind it almost overwhelms me.

( How about a re-cap of the end of 2008 and first two days of 2009? )